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Post by Koneko VonDee/Lainey VonDee on Apr 7, 2007 17:11:38 GMT -5
Koneko walked up the steps,carefully.She walked to the Popular corner and plopped down on a large blue couch.She buried her face in her hands and began to sob.She was upset and in pain because of her burn scar bleeding.
She watched the blood mixing with her tears on the ground.It seemed to make a beautiful cloud of sadness and sorrow.
She sighed deeply as she looked around.It was a beautiful view from up here.She wasn't prepared to move from there for a long while.
'If you marry me,would you bury me,would you carry me to the end?' Raced through her head.
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Post by calypsoARION on Apr 8, 2007 15:30:41 GMT -5
So Calypso had been meaning to just let her go, not invade, not follow her. But he couldn't help it. There was something kind of nagging in him, telling him that she was still just as upset as she had been. And he didn't want to think that she'd be crying somewhere, alone. While crying in front of another person was embarrassing, it wasn't as bad as crying alone was for him. Though he was 17 and a guy, Calypso still cried sometimes. Usually, it was over his messed up food problems. Control problems, some people might correct him. But it didn't matter, either way they were problems.
But despite not meaning to, Calypso had followed her. And now he was standing at the end of the stairs, trying to get up the courage to go walk over to her. It took a minute, but finally he took the last step onto the roof, then made his way over to the couch. "Hey.. I know you said you had to go, but.." He shrugged a little, hoping she wouldn't think he was being creepy and stalkerish or something. But even if she did, he couldn't do much about it now.
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Post by Koneko VonDee/Lainey VonDee on Apr 8, 2007 15:36:40 GMT -5
She saw Cal and quickly attempted to cover up her bleeding scar and her slit left wrist. She looked at him and smiled.He had followed her.How nice of him. "Hello,Cal."She said,still trying to hide her arm. She had done the slit on her wrist.But the scar just happened to start bleeding.A razorblade fell to the ground infront of her,soaked in blood.She watched him.Now he was going to know she was creepy.
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Post by calypsoARION on Apr 8, 2007 15:42:11 GMT -5
Calypso watched, seeing a razor blade fall onto the ground. A bloody razor blade, for that matter. But he wasn't going to freak out. Everyone had their issues, no need to make her feel worse about it.So he stepped closer, bending down to pick it up. "You dropped this.." he said, handing it back and sitting down on the couch. He couldn't help but check both of her wrists, and saw the left one bleeding. "Are you alright?" he asked, concerned. "You should get something to cover that, so it doesn't get infected," Calypso told her, getting a gentle hold on her left wrist.
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Post by Koneko VonDee/Lainey VonDee on Apr 8, 2007 15:45:36 GMT -5
Koneko looked at him.She tried to look away.She didn't want to get lost in his eyes.She couldn't restrain herself.She grabbed the razorblade and made a small cut on her right arm. She breathed out in relief. "I do this so I control my emotions...I can't fall in love..."She said as she started to cry. She dropped the razorblade and let it fall off of the building.She didn't want to do that anymore.She could always go buy more.That was her problem...she had the money,she could get to them to easily. "And this is how I react after Valley."She sniffled.
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Post by calypsoARION on Apr 8, 2007 15:54:10 GMT -5
"Look, I know what it's like," he said quietly, about the control. He sighed, and reached over to his messenger bag to pull out a few band-aids. Then, after getting them out of their wrappers and such, he stuck them over the open cuts on her arms. He saw that she was crying again, and wished he could do something to help. "I don't.. I don't cut, but the way I deal is just as bad," Calypso explained, looking at Koneko. No one really knew about his problems, though they might have guessed. But he didn't acknowledge it in front of people. Knoeko was actually the first person he'd admitted to that he had a problem. "I'm not going to tell you not to cut, because I know it's not just that easy. But please, be careful?"
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Post by Koneko VonDee/Lainey VonDee on Apr 8, 2007 16:18:02 GMT -5
Koneko looked at Cal.She kissed his cheek. "Thank you...I really do need to stop though.Did anyone tell you that you have the most adorable eyes?"Koneko asked him,a slight nervousness to her question.
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Post by calypsoARION on Apr 8, 2007 16:26:01 GMT -5
Calypso nodded, it would be best if she stopped. But it made him feel like such a hypocrite, about the way he was with his problems. He'd made no attempt to try and get better. He just let himself stay so messed up.. and now here he was, encouraging her not to hurt herself? Such a hypocrite... He sighed. But then, hearing her comment, he couldn't help but smile a little. "No, actually, I haven't heard that before." His eyes were his favorite feature, which would explain why he sometimes used eyeliner to make them stand out a bit. But he'd never had someone compliment him on his eyes before.
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Post by Koneko VonDee/Lainey VonDee on Apr 8, 2007 16:33:30 GMT -5
"As a matter of fact...your whole body is beautiful."She said as she scooted closer to him. This was her only chance to make a good impression and not screw up.If this worked she would never have to worry about Ry again.
Koneko blushed.She watched his eyes. "You are so handsom...and you have a wonderful personality."She smiled warmly.
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Post by calypsoARION on Apr 8, 2007 16:43:23 GMT -5
Calypso blushed a bit, he didn't take compliments easily. He looked down a bit, not able to look right at her. He was like that, getting embarrassed sometimes when someone would say something nice about him. When she finished speaking, he looked up a little. "No, I'm pretty screwed up," he said, quietly. She made it sound like he was so perfect, but he wasn't. There was so much wrong with him. She didn't realize it, maybe. But he was worried... he was so messed up, maybe she needed someone normal, someone without so many issues to hang out with.
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Post by Koneko VonDee/Lainey VonDee on Apr 8, 2007 16:53:45 GMT -5
Koneko knew what she was about to do,she'd regret. She kissed him on the lips.She backed away and sat down.Her eyes an alluring,icy blue from happiness,and her face turning a cherry red.
She bit her lip as she waited for him to scream at her.Her eyes didn't flow over with tears,for once a nice,white smile came across her face.
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Post by calypsoARION on Apr 8, 2007 17:00:24 GMT -5
Calypso blinked, trying to sort out in his mind what had just happened... She'd kissed him. And before he'd had time to get that figured out, she was seated again, looking at him. What to think? It gave him a head ache, just trying to think. But he knew he should, before he said anything, did anything. Was she just the type to go kiss guys, or was it because she liked him...? Didn't she see how messed up he was, how he'd probably just make everything worse? But he couldn't help feeling like she'd decided he was the one that would save her. And after thinking for a few seconds, he'd still come up nothing to say. So he left it at a simple, "Umm..." and a confused expression.
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Post by Koneko VonDee/Lainey VonDee on Apr 8, 2007 17:14:44 GMT -5
Koneko shifted her weight on the seat. "I really like you,despite any flaws you may have.I have many flaws myself.A drug abusing mother,a father that tells me that I need plastic surgery...and not as a joke,and a preppy sister who hates me.I don't care how many flaws anyone has...I don't mind that..."She said with a warm smile.
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Post by calypsoARION on Apr 8, 2007 17:22:12 GMT -5
"I don't eat. And when I do, I can't stop eating. I eat until I puke. And then I hate myself for it," he sighed, and shook his head. "Sometimes I'm so hungry I feel like I'm about to collapse. And so I'll watch someone else eat, because I like to torture myself that way. I know I have a problem, but I'm not going to get help for it. I'm not going to try to stop. And then I tell you that cutting's not safe, like what I do is so much better.. And I'm such a stupid hypocrite." Calypso stared down at his shoes, not able to look up at her. She was the first person he'd told about his problem. "Don't you get it? I'll just make it worse for you.."
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Post by Koneko VonDee/Lainey VonDee on Apr 8, 2007 17:31:45 GMT -5
"No,koi-kun,you won't make anything worse for me.I like you....a whole lot.I don't want to leave you to fight alone...I can help...my stupid sister used to be that way...the only way we got her to stop was to watch how much she was eating...portion control."Koneko smiled. She hugged him.
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