Post by Alessandra Mazzoni on Apr 7, 2007 19:58:30 GMT -5
Dear Diary,
Well, I've decided to actually use this thing because I need more work on my English, plus I got it from from Mercede. Well, it's safe to say that I've survived my first day here, but only barely. I haven't spoken to anyone the whole day. Mostly people just ignored me. I hate it! I'm just not cut out to be a loner, I need friends. And did I mention that they've got some sort of ridiculous class system or something here? They've started calling me an arty 'cuz of the camera my Bella's gave me. It actually took me a while to figure out what that meant. Apparently it means that I'm an artsy type person, which I most certainly am not. To me art means going to the mall and looking at new designer clothes. I know that makes me sound really stuck-up, but I just don't think it's fair of them to judge me without even getting to know me first. And well, that hurts.
I miss my girls. I bet they're having loads of fun back in Italy without me. I know they'll miss me and all, but it's not the same not having them around to talk to. Sure, I can call and write e-mails, but that's not the same as the actual face-to-face stuff. Plus the Bella's are the only people who knew about the raping besides my mama and papa. They were the ones who I was counting on to make it through this. Now, I'm in a new country where no one will even talk to me. I feel like...OH..I don't know. Maybe I should just leave this place and try to enroll myself in a public school. Or just rent an apartment and get a part-time job. My life just sucks so bad lately.
Ciao,
Aless
